Day 10

This is the last day of the cleanse for me. I plan to get up tomorrow morning and weigh so I know exactly how much I lost during that phase. I had my last sawdust drink this morning. I'm excited to see this continue to work. My clothes continue to get bigger and I need to learn how to sew better so that I can fix them without having to go buy new ones.

Today I don't want to focus so much on my diet and weight loss. I just have to share our life for a moment.

I can't give details so I will speak generally. We have some major life decisions going on right now. We have one decision to make that is very hard. It's hard because the future is so unknown. On the other hand, the decision should be easy to make because some things went down that were not cool. I struggle with my anger in this situation. I want so much to have hate, but I know that's not the right thing.

Oh, that life would be easy. That we would be able to make decisions without critisism and condemndation. And then I wonder, maybe this decision that we have to make (we actually made the decision and then were forced to take it back) is what we are supposed to be making and our enemy knows that it's right and is going to try his best to thwart God's plans for us.

If that's the case, then I'm ready for the battle. Because I know it's not really me that fights, I know that it's my God who fights for me. I'm ready to put on his armor and be a mighty warrior in His kingdom. I am not a weak person when I'm in God (alone, I am). In God I am courageous and I have nothing to fear. I know that if we are faithful to what God wants for us, even when it looks like we lose it all in the world, God will bless us and prosper us for being faithful to Him.

I just ask that if you are reading this, that you say a little prayer for us as we fight this battle. That the decisions would be made for God and not for man. God bless you and keep you.