Nothing

So I haven't blogged any updates on the status of the clomid and if it worked. And since I told everyone I wouldn't announce it till after Christmas you should know the results. It's negative all around. Darn...I was hoping this was our time.

I was even having all the symptoms. I was nauseaus (still am), a couple things of mine were sore (still are), I was (and still am) completely exhausted. So I had promising symptoms. That and I'm "late" by 5 days so now I'm confused what's going on there. =S Frustration city, man!

I also learned that I'm probably close to being clinically insane...seriously. Last Saturday I took a test and I swear I saw a faint line...same with Sunday morning (only a little more faint). Then Sunday evening I took another one and it was negative. So Monday I went in and had a blood test and negative that way too. Which means that I hallucinate and see things that don't exist.

I made a complete idiot out of myself, cause when I thought I saw the line I freaked out and told Scott, then I immediately called my mom and told her (and followed that up with a call to my sis-in-law). We were all so excited...until the tests started being negative. So I guess our last try was a bummer.

But I do have some other news that's pretty exciting. I got a new job. I'm working at the grocery store in Healy and I'm loving it. It's still my first week and I'm "in training" but I love the people I work with and I enjoy the job itself. So it's keeping me busy enough to keep my mind off of baby stuff. And now with Christmas coming up right around the corner, there's plenty planned and I get to see my family for a whole week...and even spend two nights in a hotel with only my hubby.

As disappointing as it is, I am still enjoying life, and I'm choosing to be content where God has me and with what He's given me. I choose to love Him no matter what (and no matter how angry I get in certain moments). I will always come back to Him.

God bless and have a very Merry Christmas!

Waiting, waiting, and more waiting

Ok, I need prayer. I'm so not a patient person. I think right now my patience has come from my sis-in-law. We still know nothing pregnancy wise. I think that if I am, my body is just being weird and making ME wait until Christmas.

I really think I'm losing my sanity in this wait. I was doing so good until Wednesday of this week. I started testing on Wednesday....I KNOW....it's way to soon! I have two more tests at home and I'm planning to try and wait until Monday to take one of them. And I'm also trying to get ready in case I get a little "something" this weekend and that means the answer is for sure no.

You know, I was thinking tonight. (this is said with a good attitude I promise). With as many pregnant women as I've seen and heard of lately (and as many new babies as there are now) it really can't be that hard to get pregnant. So what are we doing wrong? I thought that I had passed my sex ed. class (yes, I just said the "s" word). But I'm really starting to wonder if they didn't teach it right, or if I just didn't pay enough attention.

Ok, I'm done venting now. I just ask that you keep praying (if anyone is even reading this). Good night and I'll let you know as soon as I can what our outcome is.

God Bless and Merry Christmas!

The decision was made

I know, with Thanksgiving and all, I never got back to letting anyone know what our decision was...

...drum-roll please...

....We did the clomid. Yes, it's all over now and I am in what most ttc'rs (trying to concieve) call the two-week wait. I guess I can let you all know that we should know something by Christmas...but I have to apologize, cause if it happens we aren't sharing anything until a little later. Sorry, but I just have to make sure it sticks if I am pregnant.

On a good note, I have been doing very well with this one. I have kept my mind mostly off of it (kind of...) and it didn't seem like such a chore this time. It was actually kind of exciting. So maybe this is our time. The biggest change? The fact that if I'm not pregnant, I'm gonna be ok with it. I have at least one more shot with the clomid, so we'll discuss possibly doing it again at some point.

So I guess I'm now either pregnant or not and it's just a waiting game. So instead of praying for it to work, we must pray for my sanity...seriously. But anyway...I guess that's enough of that. And I gotta go charge my camera battery so that I can put pics on here and on my facebook page.

Love to ya'll! Merry Christmas.

Christmas is coming

Since I can't decorate for Christmas before Thanksgiving (rules by my husband who hates for Thanksgiving to be overlooked since it's his fave holiday) I snuck one thing by him this year. The day before Thanksgiving we had a neice and nephew over and between them, Martie, and myself, we made a gingerbread house. I have never done this before...and yes, I cheated. I bought a kit at walmart. Someday when I get used to doing them, we'll do a totally home-made one. But for now, not.








I let them decided how the candy would decorate the house, and they all seemed to agree (most of the time) how it should look.

I might also add that this house is very yummy...as it is now half-eaten.

My goal for next year? I want to buy a gingerbread village kit that I saw and make that my edible Christmas village for next Christmas.