Baby Boy

I had to add some pictures. I finally found some time to do it.

"Mommy" and "Mama" as we have dubbed ourselves. I'm mommy and she's mama.

John right after his first bath from the nurse.

She loves him so much. I know that it broke her heart to give him up. But she's a strong woman.

The Happy Family of 5!

This is my favorite picture of John. It's with my Grandpa Jerry. I think that this is the picture that John looks the most like Scott. I'm amazed at how God works things out.

I prayed for some specific things as we were trying for our own baby. I wanted our baby to look just like Scott, have his eyes and hair. I also wanted a calm baby that wasn't overly fussy. I don't remember if there were any other details I prayed about, but God gave me these so far..and it wasn't even through our blood.

If this doesn't prove that there's a God out there, then I just don't know what else could convince someone that we have a loving God.

Bittersweet

So today was bittersweet. The papers got signed by the birth mother. We are overjoyed to have this precious baby for our own. But as we watched this birth mother make her decision, our hearts broke. We know this was the hardest decision of her life.

We went to her room after it was all over just to say thank you and give her a hug. We talked for a few minutes and watched her fight back her tears. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.

We walked back to our room which was filled with the joyous celebration of a new family member and couldn't take it anymore. Scott and I both burst into tears and wept over the birth mothers grief. My mom came over and hugged me as I kept repeating "my heart is breaking for her". Scott sat on the bed with tears streaming down one cheek (for obvious reasons).

My girls then each took turns hugging me and I whispered I love you to each. I think my heart breaks because as a mother already I know that I could not ever be strong enough to do what she has done.

I think what makes it so personal is that she and I have gotten close enough that I can truly call her a friend. And my love for this woman runs deep as she gave us one of the greatest gifts a person can give.

I want so many prayers to go up on behalf of this woman who had so much love for her baby that she put her own feelings aside for his good. This is a woman to be honored.

John William is here

John had his own idea of when his birthday would be. Friday, September 21, 2012. He was born at 11:10 am. He weighed 7 lbs 8 oz and was 21 1/2 inches long. I watched him come into the world and then got to cut the cord. I am already madly in love with this sweet baby boy.

He barely cries. His first real cry that I heard was just a bit ago when he decided a small cry would wake mommy enough to feed him. :) When I say small cry, I literally mean small cry.

He's eating about every 3 hours and is not afraid to mess his diaper...especially right after mommy changes it...lol. Oh and he is so far quite a night owl...especially after he just spent all day sleeping through all the visitors.

He and daddy just had some good snuggle time and daddy put him to sleep. Yippee for daddy cause mommy needs more than 2 hours of sleep (in 24 hours) to really function. Welcome to having a newborn.

Overall, even in my "lack-of-sleep" brain, I am filled to overflowing with joy and love. I will try and post pics tomorrow....wait, later today.

Johns Birthdate

My John William has a birthdate! He will be born September 25, 2012. The Dr. decided to induce the birth mom this coming Tuesday. This last little bit has been the hardest wait in the world. This is even worse than waiting to see the results of a pregnancy test.

We are very excited, but still very nervous. There is still the possibility that the birth mom could change her mind after he's born. I think that's what makes the wait so hard. We are waiting on a baby that could end up not being ours. But we are going to think positive and have faith that God will help her make the right choice in the end.

We have things all ready for this little miracle to come into our lives. His room is ready, the carseat is installed, and he has more clothes than a fashion model...lol. We have formula on hand, bottles, wipes, and some diapers (until we get the cloth diapers that we want to use). We have bags packed and the camera always charged. I'm not about to miss any photo opps with this little guy.

It's been a tough road, but we've grown. We've increased our faith, as we've questioned everything we believe. But look at us now, almost 3 kids. Not exactly how we planned it, but it's exactly as God planned it. I think when we have John in our home, our family will be 100% complete.

In less than a week, I will be posting pictures of our beautiful baby boy, so make sure you keep checking for updates Tuesday or Wednesday.

God Bless you all!!!!!