Agony, pure agony. I'll tell you what it is. It's when your soon-to-be newest daughter calls on the phone almost every night and is almost in tears asking when she can come home. To hear her voice saying, "Mama, Papa, can't I just come home?" Talk about heart-breaking...especially when I can't do diddly-squat about it.
But anyway, I was thinking tonight about something. Psalms 113:9, "He makes the barren woman abide in the house As a joyful mother of children. Praise the LORD!" God gave me this verse about 5 or 6 6 years ago when I wondered why I couldn't have a baby. I've always held on to this verse and I've even had people tell me that they envisioned me with my house full of children (even if they weren't my own).
Guess what I realized?!?!?!?! I am a happy mother of children...yes, plural! I have Martaysha, soon to by Katryna....and to add to it, I have friends of Martie's and Katryna's that call me mom. Martie's boyfriend for example calls me "mommy #2". I can't even begin to express how this makes me feel. It's such a great feeling to watch God answer a prayer that is 8 years old.
And as I look back I can see how everything fit together. I may have gotten angry and frustrated at the time, but if things didn't work out just like they did, all of it would be different.
For example, if we had our own baby we never would have adopted Martie (loss #1). Then if we hadn't adopted Martie, she wouldn't have become friends with Katryna and taken her under our wing....and there would be no adoption of Katryna. Then, if we didn't have Martie, she wouldn't be dating Neal and therefore, I would not be his other mommy. Are we seeing a pattern here? There's a reason for everything.
So, just think about your life. Have you had times that didn't make sense, and maybe even made you angry? Just think of your future (past all these "trials") and imagine what good God might do with it all. I promise it's there! God Bless!!!!
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Thursday, December 15, 2011
New Addition
I am so excited to be posting this....I feel like I did a little over 3 years ago when we found out we were adopting Martie.
Here goes....
We are adopting again!!!!!
Yes, you heard me correctly. God finally said it was time once again to add to our family. She is actually from our area and we know her really well. We know her situation and what she's been through. She just turned 14 in October. Yes, we weren't sure we wanted to do the whole teenage girl thing again....but I've learned that what we want and what God wants us to do are usually two different things.
She is such a sweet girl. She and Martie are already good friends, so the transition to sisters won't be a drastic change. The only difference is that they will fight more because they will live together.
We started our paperwork, fingerprints, and will be doing our physicals very soon. The tentative date for right now is February 17th/18th. (yep..right around my birthday!) There is a chance it could be sooner, but with the state and the way it went with Martie, I'll keep the Feb date in mind.
If the paperwork gets done in time, we may get to see her for New Years at my parents house, but again this is up to whether or not the paperwork gets done and they get things in line. They want it all done soon so we can start getting weekend visitation. That will be awesome. We get to talk to her on the phone as much as we want and if we are that direction, we get to visit her if we want. We just can't take her out of that place for a visit until all the stuff gets done.
It sounds really crazy, but we have been getting a much better response this time around. Not that people weren't excited that we were adopting Martie, but I think it was such unknown territory around us that people didn't know what to do. I also think they were worried about how two inexperienced parents were gonna do with a teenager. I guess we must be doing a good job, because people seem to know a little more how to act and that we will be just fine.
One really neat thing about it was that when we announced it at church, it actually gave me a feeling that I think is close to announcing to people that you're pregnant. I don't really remember with Martie how that was...but I think since it was all so unknown and new, the feelings of fear and anxiety clouded the excitement that I felt. This time I am able to just fully feel the excitement since we know the process.
So I finally get to announce one more time that we are "expecting"!!!!
Here goes....
We are adopting again!!!!!
Yes, you heard me correctly. God finally said it was time once again to add to our family. She is actually from our area and we know her really well. We know her situation and what she's been through. She just turned 14 in October. Yes, we weren't sure we wanted to do the whole teenage girl thing again....but I've learned that what we want and what God wants us to do are usually two different things.
She is such a sweet girl. She and Martie are already good friends, so the transition to sisters won't be a drastic change. The only difference is that they will fight more because they will live together.
We started our paperwork, fingerprints, and will be doing our physicals very soon. The tentative date for right now is February 17th/18th. (yep..right around my birthday!) There is a chance it could be sooner, but with the state and the way it went with Martie, I'll keep the Feb date in mind.
If the paperwork gets done in time, we may get to see her for New Years at my parents house, but again this is up to whether or not the paperwork gets done and they get things in line. They want it all done soon so we can start getting weekend visitation. That will be awesome. We get to talk to her on the phone as much as we want and if we are that direction, we get to visit her if we want. We just can't take her out of that place for a visit until all the stuff gets done.
It sounds really crazy, but we have been getting a much better response this time around. Not that people weren't excited that we were adopting Martie, but I think it was such unknown territory around us that people didn't know what to do. I also think they were worried about how two inexperienced parents were gonna do with a teenager. I guess we must be doing a good job, because people seem to know a little more how to act and that we will be just fine.
One really neat thing about it was that when we announced it at church, it actually gave me a feeling that I think is close to announcing to people that you're pregnant. I don't really remember with Martie how that was...but I think since it was all so unknown and new, the feelings of fear and anxiety clouded the excitement that I felt. This time I am able to just fully feel the excitement since we know the process.
So I finally get to announce one more time that we are "expecting"!!!!
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