Bittersweet

So today was bittersweet. The papers got signed by the birth mother. We are overjoyed to have this precious baby for our own. But as we watched this birth mother make her decision, our hearts broke. We know this was the hardest decision of her life.

We went to her room after it was all over just to say thank you and give her a hug. We talked for a few minutes and watched her fight back her tears. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.

We walked back to our room which was filled with the joyous celebration of a new family member and couldn't take it anymore. Scott and I both burst into tears and wept over the birth mothers grief. My mom came over and hugged me as I kept repeating "my heart is breaking for her". Scott sat on the bed with tears streaming down one cheek (for obvious reasons).

My girls then each took turns hugging me and I whispered I love you to each. I think my heart breaks because as a mother already I know that I could not ever be strong enough to do what she has done.

I think what makes it so personal is that she and I have gotten close enough that I can truly call her a friend. And my love for this woman runs deep as she gave us one of the greatest gifts a person can give.

I want so many prayers to go up on behalf of this woman who had so much love for her baby that she put her own feelings aside for his good. This is a woman to be honored.