Nothing

So I haven't blogged any updates on the status of the clomid and if it worked. And since I told everyone I wouldn't announce it till after Christmas you should know the results. It's negative all around. Darn...I was hoping this was our time.

I was even having all the symptoms. I was nauseaus (still am), a couple things of mine were sore (still are), I was (and still am) completely exhausted. So I had promising symptoms. That and I'm "late" by 5 days so now I'm confused what's going on there. =S Frustration city, man!

I also learned that I'm probably close to being clinically insane...seriously. Last Saturday I took a test and I swear I saw a faint line...same with Sunday morning (only a little more faint). Then Sunday evening I took another one and it was negative. So Monday I went in and had a blood test and negative that way too. Which means that I hallucinate and see things that don't exist.

I made a complete idiot out of myself, cause when I thought I saw the line I freaked out and told Scott, then I immediately called my mom and told her (and followed that up with a call to my sis-in-law). We were all so excited...until the tests started being negative. So I guess our last try was a bummer.

But I do have some other news that's pretty exciting. I got a new job. I'm working at the grocery store in Healy and I'm loving it. It's still my first week and I'm "in training" but I love the people I work with and I enjoy the job itself. So it's keeping me busy enough to keep my mind off of baby stuff. And now with Christmas coming up right around the corner, there's plenty planned and I get to see my family for a whole week...and even spend two nights in a hotel with only my hubby.

As disappointing as it is, I am still enjoying life, and I'm choosing to be content where God has me and with what He's given me. I choose to love Him no matter what (and no matter how angry I get in certain moments). I will always come back to Him.

God bless and have a very Merry Christmas!