New Start

Wow! Where to start? I'm gonna say that this is my new beginning in life. We have made a major decision in our family. It's a tough one, but a very peaceful one. We are no longer trying for other kids. Martie is our one and only. We're ok with that.

I have come to the conclusion that I have wasted enough time that could have spent doing God's work. Ok, those of you arguing with me...yes, we had to try so that we didn't wonder for the rest of our lives if we did enough. But it has been a very rough time for us trying. And it's very obvious that God has not planned for us to have our own children.

I should be very mad about this....but wanna know something? I'm not at all angry. I have so much peace about this decision. I'll be honest, I have never before felt this much peace about something. I have true joy of the Lord for the first time in my life. And I'm so excited about what God has in store for us in the future. I am so open and pliable, that I know He will lead us where He wants us.

My whole life I've always fought for what I want...I've never really searched for what God wanted for me. That has all changed. I want so much what God wants for me. If it's music, great. If it's a young girls ministry, awesome! If it's just hanging with my husband and my parents (who will have an empty nest the same time as us) then so be it.

Have you ever really made yourself pliable to what God has in store for you? Or are you like I've been....so stuck in your ways and stubborn that you are miserable because you are fighting Him the whole time? If I may make a suggestion....I would totally just give in and give it all up to Him. You can't imagine this joy and peace until you really experience it.

So on to the "new start" in our life.

May God bless you and keep you. May His face Shine upon you.
Love ya'll!