I'm in shock...

I sit here as my shock is starting to wear off. How do I react to the news we got today? My husband has lung cancer. Melanoma to be exact....leftovers from his eye cancer. I want to be strong, but I don't feel strong. All the what-ifs go through my mind and I wonder what the future holds. How long will this battle be? Will it be over quickly or go on and on and on? I can do this...with God by my side I CAN do it. But I'm speechless...I can't think. Today feels like it was just a bad dream that might be over soon...but it's not a dream. Its real and I just want it to go away. Just keep us in your prayers as we start the process of surgeries and possibly radiation. Lord, be by our side through our trial.